I am 43 and have recently been diagnosed with ADHD.
I am shocked every day by the kaleidoscope of feelings and emotions that I have also been thrown!
Anger, sadness, frustration, compassion, injustice and disbelief, are just a few. From as far back as I can remember, I have always been told that I am too much. That I am too loud, too quiet, too fidgety, too indecisive, too needy, too talkative, too much or not enough, this has become part of who I know myself to be and now, being told that a lot of that lies with ADHD is really hard for me to accept – (thank you unhelpful neurological pathways!)
But gently, I am taking small steps towards believing it and thinking of how to take off the cloak of shame I wear for all my perceived “short falls or too much’s.”
This diagnosis doesn’t change much, I am still battling with “me”, but I now have something that I can investigate, a gentle acknowledgement of “perhaps I am not a bad or broken person” and for that, I am grateful.
Jo